Monday, May 23, 2011

El Roi (You-Are-The-God-Who-Sees)

A friend has been encouraging me lately to stop being afraid of writing and sharing my writing. So here is something I started a year ago and finished today.

El Roi (You-Are-The-God-Who-Sees)
I had no righteousness to give you,
Ashamed and alone as I was,
Fearful of being known.
But you saw me.
And, pursuing a wretch with lovingkindness,
You tasted the wages of my sin.
Your compassion washed away my shame.
Your righteousness clothes me in purity;
Solitude is overwhelmed in your presence.
You see me for what I am now:
I am yours.
Draw me ever nearer, Jesus,
Ever closer to your heart of mercy.
Let me be found in you.
Take me in my brokenness
And remake me
As a new Eve--
From the very self of my bridegroom.
Speak to me, sing over me with a new song.
Teach me to sing it with you:
“I am my beloved’s
And he is mine; 
His banner over me is love."
~me 

Book Reviews


Last time I blogged I mentioned two books I wanted to read: Crazy Love and Radical.
Well I finished them both and would recommend either one. In fact, I have an extra copy of Radical if someone wants to borrow it. Here’s a taste of them both:

By Francis Chan

Chan writes with the passion of one who has found a love so big that to say small things would be unthinkable. And he asks the question – what is your response to this love? What is the right response to this love? In the end it’s not about the packaging we put on things. It’s about our hearts. And our hearts are reflected in our actions, our words, our lives. What’s important in eternity is important now.

Really, just go read it. If you need a copy, email me.


Reading this book right after returning to America from a cross-cultural missions-soaked culture of bible college, I could relate so much to what Platt poured out in a similar state -- the frustration and confusion and clarity that comes with reverse culture shock. He talks about our lives and our churches in a global perspective of what Christianity was meant to be. I remember a story he told about the underground church in China… how they laughed when they heard about American church hoppers, because finding the best church isn’t an option they’ve ever had the opportunity to consider. But as much as he focuses on the misplaced focus of the American church, the book struck me as more than a look at how we’ve gone wrong. In the last few chapters I found an arrow sign for getting back on track. His challenge is simple: over the next year… pray for the whole world, read through the entire Bible, sacrifice your money for a specific purpose, spend your time in a different context than you normally do, commit to a growing body of believers. And see how God uses it to change what you value.

I’ve got to be honest - I’m still only dipping my toes into the challenge. But I think it’s because I know how much it will change me. I think it takes purposeful action to let God change us sometimes. Mainly when we honestly don’t want to be changed.

Let’s want to be changed.

And lastly, I also picked up Don’t Waste Your Life by John Piper. And that one was so incredibly good. If you’re like me and you tend to ask “why?” I think you’ll like it.

Don’t Waste Your Life answered that question for me in a way that made me set the book down a few times in amazement of God. Why does it matter? Because God is worthy. And in His worth, all else pales in comparison.

It was like Crazy Love and Radical put together, with a little more digging through scripture and church history in the mix. “To live is Christ, to die is gain.” Truly.

Beloved, don’t settle for a life that just tries to avoid sin. Make your life count for something that is of infinite value. 

If you’re going to read only one of these, pick this one.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Transitions

Note: I've made some updates to the permanent info on the blog - you should check that out too. :-) 


As I start to write this post the first thoughts in my mind are of time.

It's been six weeks... is how I wanted to begin, though it's almost 7 weeks now since I returned home. I expected more of the time - that perhaps I would have a job by now or know exactly how everything would work for me to get back to Romania. I like having concrete steps lined out. It's comforting to have a plan, whether or not I end up following it.

When I think about time it's easy for me to get nervous, because I tend to focus on how much I'd like to be back in Romania today - if only that were possible. (To my Central Oregon loved ones: I do love you. But the burden on my heart for Eastern Europe presses me to not get too comfortable here.) I feel the urgency of time slipping away - "I only fear that I don't have enough time left to tell the world that there's no time left" - these lyrics from a Group1Crew song run through my head some days. But then I have to quiet my heart and remember that it's God who gave me the burden and it's God who will lead me there. Isaiah 52:12 has a beautiful picture of Him leading His people - "For you shall not go out in haste...For the Lord will go before you, and the God of Israel will be your rear guard." He is before me and behind me. I am comforted by His promise that His words do not go out in vain, but they accomplish what He pleases (Isaiah 55:11). If He wants me in Romania, it will happen. It will take me walking in obedience - but me rushing ahead won't help Him along.

Forgive me for all this introspection... I don't have much other information to share. I did go to Mission Connexion Northwest in Portland in January and I was blessed and encouraged to hear how God is working around the world. George Verwer of Operation Mobilization was one of the speakers and he challenged all of us to re-think what it means to be a Christian, whether we have a Biblical view of Christianity -- and to start asking what God could do with a life radically submitted to Him. On a similar note, I've ordered a couple of books I've heard are challenging - Radical and Crazy Love (those are links for the curious) and am looking forward to hearing what they have to say.

--Lydia 

...and just because pictures are fun... :-)

One great thing about being home is enjoying getting to be "Auntie Lydia" whenever I get to visit with my friends and their kids.